The other day I went shopping for clothes. It’s something I haven’t done too much of since I lost those 15 kgs, as there were still so many “small” clothes I had left in my closet waiting for me to “one” day be small enough to fit in. It’s a good thing I never lost hope and just donate them all away. Now that I am small enough, I have been busy wearing those “small” clothes. New ones had to be bought though I never realized how much I was still the “chubby” me inside even though I have been shopping for almost a year.
I suddenly realized the other day when shopping and trying on clothes, that I kept unconsciously picking out clothes were subject to the old rules. Rules that had been part of my life for much too long. An eternity it feels like.
The list goes like this:
No horizontal stripes.
No light coloured bottoms.
No large lines.
No large patterns.
No skinny or pencil skirts. A-line or pleats only.
No straight legged pants. Boot cuts were favoured.
No lightweight material. Materials need some weight to hide those flabs.
No chiffon, no knit.
I couldn’t let this continue. I had to try on something different. I tried on sleeveless shirts, dresses with large patterns, horizontals and yes, the other day I actually bought myself a BEIGE coloured skirt.
What’s so interesting about BEIGE? Nothing… I love it. I love it now that I can wear it.
Beige skirts or bottoms were things that I previously steered from as far away as I could. I ran away from them and dared not introduce them into my closet. Beige was a BIG “No No” A fashion faux-pas.
My skirts or pants were all in the “darker” and slimming tones of black, brown and navy blue. It was like that for almost as long as I’ve been working (and that is a LONG time) . Now I have some greys, and pink, but BEIGE is still a new thing for me.
For the first time in my life, there are no rules I have to live by for clothing. I can wear anything. I can pick out a funky shirt, a pair of shorts or a weird dress and just wear it. Gone forever are the rules. Tear them up, throw them away and burn them to ash. No more will they become part of my life.
Freedom. Freedom at long last.
If you are working on losing weight. Remember this: once you have reached your goal, no longer will you have to burden your brain with all these rules. No longer will your closet be filled with only the darker shades on the colour wheel with bottoms in only black, brown and navy blue. You will be free to wear (or not wear) anything you choose or want to. You will be able to wear that pencil skirt, perhaps in beige, or perhaps even get yourself a nice beige suit for work. Wear a beige or white coloured pair of pants for the summer together with a light top.
Imagine it all. Imagine yourself in beige. I love it. I hope you do too.