so many of them I think I look like a potato myself! Notice the arms and the way I had to stand to hide my tummy…ugh… poor me. 😦
It used to annoy me to no end when people commented on my weight. Some people, I thought, were so rude to comment on my “chubbiness” in the first few minutes of our encounter. Overtime I learnt it was a “Thai” thing. Thais were worried about our welfare in terms of food,
“have you eaten yet?” and also about appearances. It was important to look good. First impressions are everything.
I used to think …”people should like me for who I am, it’s inner beauty that counts not how I look outside.” I still believe it, but I realize now that the way I thought about it before was my way of giving myself an excuse to stay big.
I told myself, “I will not become a barbie doll or those people who are so well groomed they look so “perfect” everyday. I have my own character….and so I remained big, got bigger, and gave myself more reasons why I didn’t need to lose weight. I was in denial. Everyone
else was just so “superficial.” I wasn’t really THAT big. I was just chubby! So I like eating, so what? I wasn’t harming anyone. (except myself)
Health never came up. I believed and told myself that I was “chubby,” that I hadn’t outgrown my baby fat. Now I know that wasn’t so. 🙂 Its funny to look back now and see through all the excuses I gave myself with my eyes wide open. It’s now crystal clear that health ain’t got nothing to do with my inner beauty!
As a teacher of mine liked to say all the time, “excuses excuses are but confessions of failure.” It’s so true! Thank you.